do you think it is possible to leave behind what is so grievous and painful in the traditional evangelical church and yet remain in the faith?

i was raised in the church and fed well-studied reformed theology. i worked in the church as a worship leader.  i raised my children through their youngest years inside sunday school and a loving community of christ and yet i grew to a place of such enormous disillusionment with organized religion that i left it all.

i eventually abandoned god.

now i find my heart turning again to my creator and i can understand god as love; i have hope for a life of faith again but i cannot imagine ever belonging to anything with the name “christian.”

and yet i seek something.  i live in maitland florida - which is a suburb of orlando. are there any emergent movements nearby?

thanks